An Autopsy of Charlie Sheen

U can just exchange ur cross for the road
cause the doctor says ur the pain in my back
but I know it’s from falling over the rail
road to perdition
and exploring
foggy night vision
living television
and wondering why shit gets blurry
when u took shot after shot at the hourglass

U can exchange a wish for a bone
And drive past star signs while you
criss cross ur shoelaces and watch
the wind blow
the letters you misspelled freedom with
I personally choose the
God, please listen to my mafucking stories
approach
cause when bedtime rolls around
you all wanna be friar tucked in
swaying to another symphony
u borrowed
then wandered right into a new a sound wave
capsizing the raft you crafted
beer bottled up inside your own memories
going through emotional
baggage claim
to find a suitcase missing

and a bad mood ensued

U can try to catch your mind moving
at the speed of thought
break its limits and
walk around getting recalibrated
sacrificing meaning for content

U can exchange reaping for harvest
but the sun don’t flower just like that
that’s why I mediate between the noise
and the silence,
and make u understand
why the text won’t book you anything
you haven’t digested

U can put your foot down
But leave no footprint
then take your sunglasses off
and yell “thief” when you notice
someone stole your heart
only to look in your back pocket
and notice your inner light was missing
now you’re acting as the evidence’s
comic relief as you
blame it on the cumulous nebula
overcastting your radar
because your busy heat seeking
and
good at grabbing something hot for a second
but don’t have the fortitude to
clutch an amber for a while

U can hammer saw gnaw
and snap at any delirium that you pick
but when a grenade writes
your name in the sky you
hear your ego trip’s been cancelled
and now know your number’s been added
to the equation
and it’s your turn to
balance the variables

U can count on me a lot though
I may sum up
the lottery eludes painting aligning stars
and other spectacular daydreams onto the sidewalk
though I prefer my evolution served
standing up

U can get credit carded
playing on financial instruments
high on a screwed up rhythm
haunted by her moans
and hormones
and now whore moans
put me to sleep in the morning
and keep me out of bed and
in the night
so hold on if you
catch my driftwood

when the night gets undressed and
beckons you to do the same
and the cold crawls in for another glass
u can
consider it safe if the labels still on it
share it alone with warm getting high
fidelity
while
watching the latest masterpiece
of the escape artist
and notice your reflection flicker on the canvas

U can follow your fears
and call it being yourself

U can slither through matter
As if you do

U can feel your heart
As if it does

U can lie to walls
Because they do the same to you

U can
say you can’t
But I won’t

Published in: on May 26, 2011 at 10:44 pm  Leave a Comment  

Move Slowly

If you go very slowly
they can’t see you
If you go very slowly
they won’t be able to hear you
cause if you’re going slow
you’re like a whale
trying to hug a sparrow
but it can all pass with an unguarded exhale
your soul may soar,
be sore
a no fly zone a battered whore

so move very slowly
like mercury
but with the heat of Venus
penetrating, reverberating
not to miss a thing
deep city fishing
catching nothing but questions
not hatching lessons
but swaying with dreams
right into an earthquake
then try and fix the whole
thing with a quick origami trick
that turns air into clouds and souls into holes
and where have all the men gone?

Are they moving slowly
or are they all out rectangular big cheifing it up?
or is it all just a game
now I close my eyes and cast my cards before the dice
and scope that eightball and tarot advice
tell me where’s your bread from?
all of it
from loaf to breadcrumb
you ask if it’s safe now?

Fishing for questions, till you too become a fish
swimming, till you catch a glimse of that bait with a face
hook

now I wonder that it’s getting so empty in here,
where have all the women gone?
Has persucution and no rehabilitation programs back to the steering wheel
and welding mill taught them that, it’s all just a fucking game? And that their pain is only their own and there is no alliances anymore, they walk with hands up out of the trenches and over the barbed wire fences to the enemy lines saying pack it all up the gods have won
and all we can do, is dance it off in a drunken stupor that reminds us more of nothing than something,
scales tipped and now nailed and polished
we lie under puffs and mire
So I move slowly
lest I pass the world looking at me and not return the favor

I slowly turn to the gods
and slowly say in a firm but slow voice,
that it might just be a game,
but I’m prepared to win it

No matter what you do,
it just keeps on spinning
all of it

the merry go round
and round they go to stay that way
cause it’s all optional
a game
nobody meant it seriously
it’s only a game
depending on how you spin it

so I’m moving slowly now
hugging all of it

Published in: on March 21, 2011 at 10:28 pm  Leave a Comment  

2en

Megyünk ketten
a szívem
meg én

bandukolunk
kettecskén
néha fúj a szél
néha fujj a csend
de néha
nagyon néha
megvagyunk
mi ketten

Published in: on March 21, 2011 at 10:25 pm  Leave a Comment  

Te vagy a kriptonitom

Szemeidben lebegő szavaknak
én vagyok az átka
te az ellentétem tárgya
ha hozzád beszélek
mint amikor kesztyűvel gépelek

mellé

mondok mindent s semmit
elveink, elvileg e s memóriánk
Tamáskodik egy két nap után
de mi

oltunk

mert az égés veszély
tépjük a levegőt ollóval
gyártjuk az angyalokat
démonjainkból

mert én robbanékony mint Krakatoa,
fogékony mint egy parabola
ha a légkör tiszta

a szenvedés
a költészet viagrája
s én hálás vagyok érted
e pirula gazdája

amikor áll
csatabárdból szonátákat
csődítek,
csalfa csámpás szivünk poénját
lelövitek

Published in: on December 31, 2010 at 2:45 pm  Leave a Comment  

I asked my boss what day it was, -puzzled-
his reply hit me
as Euro trip would an American kid,

it’s: ’Pretend to be happy Thursday’.
So I walked around all day smiling.

Published in: on August 9, 2010 at 2:18 pm  Leave a Comment  

Probably Nothing

Show me your Oracle your Isis
the source of Promethean vices
The guffawing gladiators of thoughts
made for befuddleing the ”have not’s”

In fidelity to logic, what use to Pluto
de facto would your soul be on Juno?
Allah and Abraham allowed little choice
all their children chime in the same voice.

Silly putty and midieval meandering,
let Africans find Christ through Krishna
a ’christmas gun sale’ and Ja is fighting
Jesus, while Cronos is loose and looting

Hades on a business trip bargaining for souls
with Niké for commercial acting roles
while the tribe of Judah banks on Buddha
for the next Olympian flame.

More manipulating old thoughts
for control of bigger juggernauts
only Amor’s bow is never aimed low if
you are mortal.

Published in: on August 9, 2010 at 1:17 pm  Leave a Comment  

Happy End

My happy end is misery, met wine,
Blew right up in my shocked face,
As I told so many times:
’For your eyes are saying otherwise’

A little gangrene pillow I have to
Sleep with, some more rain now
I need it. In the end self helps ed
Was sharing ’your life’ thoughts
While suicide killed the author.
Voters lament, pale and spent.
And space crept in between.
Never wished the bastard
A shared drink with me.
These days are still those days,
Carpeting her well televisioned soul.
How to get over a broken heart in 10
Days? the blogger blindly wrote.
How to re-saddle a minced heart in
10 days? You don’t!

It’ll have to be ecclesiastical effervescence,
Or liquid interference, some glum combination

Of the two.

The only reply was from ’Suicide King’:
„Great piece of poetry!”

Published in: on August 9, 2010 at 12:56 pm  Leave a Comment  

Discrimination

Real is not common but Common is real,
so when I see the real I wanna cop a feel
I try to carry the truth banner so evens cops can feel
that I work magic on minds like David Copperfield
I bar prejudice with my honest shield
those who discriminate get lost in a logic field
with forces of love I’ve even seen skinheads healed
that’s why, when I see the real I wanna cop a feel
here we still are playing hide and seek with our hearts
sometimes hoping not to feel
here we live in our alloted parcels
made up of diverse parts,
with thoughts balls and
chains, and being human know the strains of growing pains,
but our differences lie not
within our chromosomes, nor in the geographic density
of our bones, or in our colours or our hues,
but more in the rhythm of our blues
I say we must first discover the contents of our
minds, before we too can become
spiritually in tune, and erudite
and watch souls take to flight
not just cash collecting for better dream sellecting
Let’s celebrate our minds
tonight

Lets talk history not some mystery
u can see
how two fists can be
in perfect symmetry
but I say: fists don’t pose no risk to me
this seems like the gist to me,
of a criminal revolution
with discrimination as the logo
of the confusion

champions of Equality
With a revolutionary army
like Che Guevarra and Trotsky
A revolution of harmony
you say you see

where?

ideas are always right, execution
is always critisized margin of error
is minimized, by the news enterprise
but let’s let tonight initialize,
a greater opening of eyes
talk to me teach me your myths and your methods
shake loose your minds chains and shackles
and change your shacks into tabernacles
you see
i don’t care about voodoo
i’m only interested in what u do

Sometimes
I wish I wish I wish
I could fly like Adam Malysz
soar with the bass and treble of sound
as in my heart loves beats resound
you know I’ll never return to the ground
once I’ve tasted words soaked and drowned in the profound
with all my thoughts still sane and sound, till my
personal variations of self elevation
are drowned

Published in: on August 7, 2010 at 4:18 pm  Leave a Comment  

A Nyugalmamhoz

Tépett szárnyakkal
repülnék
tova

én

a pillanat lakosa
elmémet beborítja
a viragos sötétség
mint erdőt a moha

eső
utcán lépked
a
levegővel
dacolva
beszélek

kössünk békét

vitassuk csöndes országunk
hangos baját
bájban, bárokban áztatva
vigyük édes felújított közhelyeinket álmunkba

spiccesen

(vessünk véget a hideg részegségnek
és mardjunk mindig melegen spiccesek)

Published in: on August 7, 2010 at 2:48 pm  Leave a Comment  

Now that I’m done

Now that I’m done
talking to the wind
and
opening the doors of the sun
done taking
samples
of random objects
and elements
giving titles to
places in what I call my
mind

Now that I’m done referencing
words and
done
fencing
with my heart
saying
endings
become beginnings
and
things
like that

The sun needs
notme
to open its doors
and let it swallow
the chosen dimensions
and sorrow
taxes on import no more
important make glass
knock on
oaken surfaces
while breezy strides
in
all wistful and tell tale
wrinkles
are whispering

But now that I’m done
with all that
and
the other way around
I concentrate vision
energy
soul
within

and on those broken eyes

Published in: on August 7, 2010 at 2:28 pm  Leave a Comment  
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